Today’s chosen title is another little saying that I like and believe in, and which I seem to have adhered to since my last post. I think we forget to tell our nearest and dearest when things are good, although we are perfectly willing to have a good old whinge to anyone that will listen when things are bad.
Well, I’ve forgotten to let you know that it’s been a great week. The chemo brain switch flicked off on the Tuesday morning in the end. Most bizarre how it turns off overnight – just like that.
Papa is so much better, after a few days away with friends and an appetite which is slowly coming back, he even had a sherry the other night (no biggie, I hear you say… but when you’ve been off booze for nigh on 6 months, to partake of a sherry that tastes as it should is quite something!).
In keeping with the alcohol theme, one of my exciting moments was enjoying a cheeky glass or two of Prosecco (which tasted like Prosecco, not some dreadful, bitter medicine) with friends at a Sunday night impromptu BBQ (thanks A & P), and after minor panic the week before when my taste buds decided that Cadbury’s Twirls were quite revolting, I’m back on the chocolate… you can all rest easy now knowing the share price of Cadbury’s and Tesco’s hummus will remain stable for the foreseeable future.
Do you ever get the feeling and Dad and I are easy to please right now, funny how you become VERY grateful for the little things in life!
I keep forgetting that I am wearing scarves, or if not wearing one, forgetting that I look like your archetypal cancer patient… Quite funny when you make eye contact with someone who you catch staring at you – they look embarrassed, I look confused while I try to remember why they are finding me so fascinating, I smile at them and they haven’t got a clue what to do… makes me chuckle, worth a trip to the supermarket just for the entertainment factor!
As some of you may have seen on facebook, Joe and I have chosen the photos from our first “Chemo Collection” photo session. I’ve popped a few on here to bore you all with, I love the fact that this is all about me, I do feel as though I have carte blanche on the bragging rights to do things like this now. The wonderful Nicky not only agreed to alter her “Baby Collection” product but has worked miracles (and is very clearly a master in ‘tidying’ up blotchy, red skin and wrinkles) and created some truly lovely shots for us. As soon as I saw them I was so relieved that I had done this as there’s no knowing how I’m going to look at the other end of our journey (I’m back to the hair issue again, it really has taken on a whole new level of importance..). I think it was important for Joe as well to have a reference point for how I looked for the first decade of his life. We’re planning on having a giggle at the ‘during’ session and it’ll be interesting to see how long we have to wait for the ‘after’ session. Here’s her website if you need a brilliant photographer in the Bristol area – http://www.nicolajanephotography.co.uk/
I had such a lovely weekend with my boy. Simple days doing simple things. Walking the dog, gardening, Lego building, nipping out for fancy burgers for dinner, clearing out outgrown toys, etc. Nothing that will set the world on fire, but when you get to that quiet Sunday night time and all is peaceful and your honey says, “I had a really nice weekend Mum”, it does give you a warm, cuddly feeling. That and the fact that you managed to do something right, a whole 48 hours without any epic ‘mummy fails’ and no shouting!
Looking forward to a special weekend with family and Uncle R and K who are over from NZ, a well timed visit as they can help us celebrate Big Sister and my birthdays. Well, actually it’s her birthday celebration which I’m gate crashing as I’ve decided to cancel mine this year as I get the feeling it will be a bit of a wash out straight after chemo no.3 – one must feel like eating cake on ones birthday!
Notes from this week:
- Itchy face started over the last couple of days – driving me mad.
- Eating… lots – managed to get 3lbs back on.
- Daily indigestion is a bit annoying. Apparently that’s because your gullet is made up of those pesky fast growing cells.
- Walking – did 4.3 miles yesterday and today so back to where I want to be before chemo no.3.
- Painful left boob – must ask Dr C about that at pre chemo appointment tomorrow.
- Sorry to divulge the fact that the inevitable ‘blocking up’ of the system has started, don’t think the iron tablets are helping, so utilised some of the laxatives that I was issued with on day one – haven’t helped much.
- Scalp has been painful again and a bit lumpy, was expecting the last lot of hair to fall out but it hasn’t yet – clippers are going to be required soon I think…
- Eyebrows, eyelashes, nails are all still present and correct.
Bit of a gushy post this time, don’t worry, I’ll be back to normal next week. I have to say though, it is rather nice knowing that it’s not all doom and gloom and good weeks do happen – I’m mighty glad that I have this so I can re-read it when I’m feeling crap.